What I ate: Weekend Edition

I hope everyone is entering this Monday with renewed energy, a full heart and stomach!

This weekend was a great mix of seeing my people, joyful movement, relaxation and good eats. But as always it came to a close too soon!

I thought it would be fun to (try to) document my eating over the weekend. I got pictures of *most* of my eats to share with you! I am, and probably always will be, a work in progress.

Saturday

This morning, I was in a hurry to get going to meet my sister for a baby shower, so I failed to get a picture... but I ate some yogurt with granola and bloobs. Coffee with half and half and water to go. Snacks of Siren protein bites and a Kind bar stashed in my purse in case of emergency.

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My niece and I danced and sang all the way until we picked her up a happy meal. She had chicken nuggets, french fries and chocolate milk and most importantly a dinosaur toy. 

My sister and I were looking forward to getting bosco sticks at Little Sheba's prior to the baby shower and we managed to get there in the knick of time, with good outdoor weather to boot.

These bosco sticks were a go to lunch item in high school when lunch didn't look so good. And they tasted like nostalgia. After lunch we headed to meet our grandmother for a baby shower for a cousin! 

They had food galore that looked delicious at the shower, but meg and I were full. I did have a bite of Zoe's cake which, yet again, goes unpictured.

My joyful movement of the day was running up and down the stairs to check on my niece in the playroom. Anytime I hang out with her I have so much more respect for parents.

We left a little after three and I yet again failed to snap a photo, but met my dad, brother and grandfather for an early dinner at The Olive Garden.

I failed and was immersed in conversation about everything but ate a bowl of salad, a breadstick (or was it two, I am not certain!) and a little less than half of my make your own pasta bowl: linguine, mushroom sauce and fritta chicken.

After 3 hours in the car, when I got home I was hungry enough again, so I finished the pasta off while Matt ate leftover pizza and pesto cheese bread. 

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We then took Miya for an evening walk because the temperature in Indiana lately has been perfect. She managed to only bark at one older couple so it was successful.

Matt went out to mow and I headed to bed to do some reading before hitting the sack at 9 p.m.

Sunday

This morning started out similar to Saturday with some yogurt, blueberries, PB,  dark chocolate strawberry granola, chia and flax seeds.

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It was delicious and perfect pre-hike snack before we headed to griffy lake I grabbed a water bottle and siren snacks to take if hunger strikes.

Fortunately, after the hike Matt and I were both lunchtime hungry so we decided to go to Buffa Louie's for a bite.

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I had the Italian sub with unpictured tots and Matt got their Sweet Lou Burger and a small side of wings.

We then swung by Kroger and did our grocery shopping for the week prior to heading home to our corg-babe.

Late afternoon, I was getting hungry again and my husband had kindly gotten me a couple of scoops of homemade ice cream from arguably the best ice cream shop in the world. 1 scoop glazed donut and 1 scoop cheesecake. Cone added from home. Look at the envy in Miya's eyes. I ate the whole cone and about half of the ice cream-looking forward to enjoying it for dessert sometime this week!

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That afternoon we began watching Harry Potter from the beginning and made it through The Chamber of Secrets before I went to bed to read. In between movies we took Miya for a short walk and ate leftovers for dinner.

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BLT salad with chicken, avocado, ranch croutons and cucumbers (for me).  This salad is one of Matt's favorites and it's relatively easy to make! We always have leftovers into the weekend which makes for a nice and simple meal.

So what were some fun things you did this weekend? Good Eats? Joyful Movement? Maximum relaxation? Love to hear from you below. 

What's new in your grocery cart?

I've tried (at least) five new things! I've noticed that when trying new things I gravitate mostly towards snack items. I tend to do a lot of home cooking and when we don't, tend to eat out. Not that we don't have easy products we love to turn to on busy nights, but those are tried and true and rarely new... maybe I need to branch out?

Anyway, here's what I thought about five more food products and whether I would buy them again:

1. La Terra Fina Dip & Spread

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I'm a fan of Dips and Spreads. Don't get me wrong veggies are great and all, but they are so much better raw when they're transporting something that compliments them. Also, so many people struggle to eat their veggies, I love being able to suggest ways to change it up.

I bought these when I went over to look at the hummus and they happened to be on sale. So I debated the flavors and swiped these two delicious looking ones up. To be honest I was a bit disappointed by the Spinach Parmesan one, but loved the Green Chile and Cheese-It reminded me of jalepeño poppers! I will definitely be purchasing that flavor again

I checked out their site and love how many flavor options they have!

I'm not a fan of the "real quality food" because that literally means nothing but makes it suggest it's "superior" to other foods.

Other dips I want to try: Pineapple Habanero and their Vanilla Bean Cheesecake Dip!

2. Love Crunch Dark Chocolate and Peanut Butter Granola

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I've tried love crunch granola in the past but this flavor was new to me and it did not disappoint!

I've been loving on yogurt lately and wanted to be able to add something with a crunch for a variety of texture. So to the granola section I went and noticed this alongside the tried and true flavors that I knew I loved... but I'm always up for more PB in my diet!

I love how rich and impactful all their flavors are and this one did not disappoint. 

I'm not a fan of the non-gmo project verified because I'm pretty certain there is no GMO equivalent of anything in the ingredient list.

I've officially all four granola flavors, they're all good but the Coconut dark chocolate is my absolute favorite!

3. Icelandic Provisions Coconut Skyr

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As I've said, my yogurt game has increased lately. While technically this is skyr and not yogurt, it's stored in the same section so.....

I generally buy a tub of plain greek yogurt, but also like to have a few single serving packages to grab on the run that are quick and easy and don't require any extra prep. Typically it's whatever is on sale so enter the trying of this product!

Coconut flavor is one of my favorites so I always gravitate towards it-this one did not disappoint on the flavor, had a thick and creamy texture and I will definitely buy again!

I love the texture. Some yogurts are too thin but as I said above this one was nice and thick! Apparently this is a trait of skyr so maybe I need to buy it more often!

I'm not a fan of the fact that I've been mispronouncing it incorrectly and no one has corrected me! (pronounced /skeer/)

Other products I want to try: Peach Cloudberry

4. Pepperoncini Flavor Kettle Brand Chips

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As I've said, my yogurt game has increased lately. While technically this is skyr and not yogurt, it's stored in the same section so.....

I generally buy a tub of plain greek yogurt, but also like to have a few single serving packages to grab on the run that are quick and easy and don't require any extra prep. Typically it's whatever is on sale so enter the trying of this product!

Coconut flavor is one of my favorites so I always gravitate towards it-this one did not disappoint on the flavor, had a thick and creamy texture and I will definitely buy again!

I love the texture. Some yogurts are too thin but as I said above this one was nice and thick! Apparently this is a trait of skyr so maybe I need to buy it more often!

I'm not a fan of the fact that I've been mispronouncing it incorrectly and no one has corrected me! (pronounced /skeer/)

Other products I want to try: Peach Cloudberry 

4. Oreos Special Flavors

We are an Oreo family. So every time we see a new flavor we generally grab it. When these two flavors came out we were extra excited.

Both of these flavors were super good! The pistachio was my personal favorite-it has a nutty flavor that is so amazing! The other tastes straight up like PB pie. If you see either I highly recommend grabbing them

Coconut flavor is one of my favorites so I always gravitate towards it-this one did not disappoint on the flavor, had a thick and creamy texture and I will definitely buy again!

I love that they taste like childhood.

I hate that these amazing flavors are only available for a  limited time

Other products I want to try: Apparently they have a Good Humor Strawberry Shortcake flavor coming out later this summer and I am so excited to try it!

Are there any new products you've tried lately? Did you enjoy them? Let me know below!

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Lone Weekend

My husband recently was selected to be one of NASM Master Instructors-which means occasionally he'll be away on weekends for this job.  He loves teaching others, so I'm super proud of him and excited for this new venture, but this means that I will have some occasional weekends throughout the year all to myself.

And I absolutely love that.

Don't get me wrong, I love my husband and love spending time with him. But sometimes you need downtime to do you. To watch movies and TV he would rather not and eat food that you want without question and fully indulge in self care and sleep diagonally on the bed because you can.

I also love the idea that I may be able to tag along on some of these adventures, so it's a win-win.

This past weekend was the first, and I had big plans. I was going to organize and clean and relax and be productive and eat Turkish food and take a bath and watch the princess bride and read like twenty books and be in bed by 9 p.m. And of course it didn't go exactly as planned but I got some quality alone time in.

He left early Saturday and my plan for the afternoon was to work on some business related things, once I got all caught up it was time for some R & R.

I had previously started The Bold Type (a freeform tv show that I had very low expectations of) and ended up loving it, so I caught up on the current season.

It's apparently inspired by women of cosmo and is about three badass ladies who are chasing their dreams at a fashion magazine. Also, in one of their latest episodes Tess Holliday (Cool Kid Body Positive Activist and Plus Size Model) makes a guest appearance as they work the whole episode on an issue centered around real bodies! Okay. Enough about that. But I do recommend watching if you're looking for a tv show during the summer lull, new episodes are currently premiering of season 2 on Tuesdays (the following day on Hulu).

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I chowed down on leftover copy cat penne rosa and was in bed before nine finishing up Hunger by Roxane Gay. It was a successful first night. I slept diagonally and my dog only woke me up twice, and I slept in until 8:30 on Sunday which is crazy late for me!

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After waking up, I decided to organize my (previously designated) craft desk that now is also used for work from home matters (or I want to... if I can keep the crafts off of it). I'm really loving how it's shaping up! A little work and then I tried to spend Sunday how Matt and I do when we're together... relatively unplugged and it was the perfect day for it! 

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We spent so much of the day outdoors, laying on our picnic blanket, doing some fun reading, barking at the neighbors dogs and children (this last one was more Miya than me). The weather was so perfect for this, 81 and sunny, not a rain cloud in sight! So I soaked it up. I'm hoping for more summer days like this to come.

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Now I know I said I was going to get Turkish food and usually when Matt's out of town I go for the restaurants he hesitates to visit with me... But a burger, fries and shake sounded so good so I went with my gut. Also, Five Guys does a PB&J milkshake that rocks my socks. 

Afterwards I watched She's Having a Baby. (A movie Matt most definitely would not have enjoyed.) I have a thing for 80s films, throw in the fact that it was written and directed by John Hughes and starred Kevin Bacon and I was all in. I tried to watch this movie without any other distractions-which I realized I rarely do anymore-and actually really enjoyed it. Matt's not too impressed with older movies so I really need to make it a point to get them in when he's not around!

After the movie I talked to Matt for a bit. His flight had been cancelled, so I had the bed to myself for another night. I started to get ready for bed and was tired so I fell asleep right around 9. Mondays are tough and to be honest my dog did not allow us to sleep very well, so today was mostly all the tasks I put off (cleaning, cooking, and napping). 

All in all, a weekend alone can do a world of good! We are looking forward to having Matt back! What are some things you did this past weekend that you enjoyed?

Munich

After our adventures on the Romantic Road, our next stop was Munich.

Honestly Munich was the low of our trip. I feel like it's partially because it's a city and it rained so much that it was difficult to walk the city. I feel like it's partially because we only had time to do the touristy things in the city. 

They did have the best food by far though and that made up for the rain.

We got there relatively late in the evening and had to wait for our AirBNB hosts, luckily they asked us to meet them at a bakery so I took the opportunity to ease my hunger and eat another delicious baked good (apricot croissant) until they arrived. Once we were all settled into our flat it was time for dinner.

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Through my research I found Steinheil 16 which hit all the musts (within walking distance, German fare, cheap but loved by locals, and had a rating of >4). The restaurant wasn't huge but it had a fun and inviting feel. The waitstaff we interacted with spoke English (and they had English menus) so that always helps! 

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I had the best schnitzel of the trip (which I may be shunned from the hoosier state for saying this but think tenderloin but so. much. better.) Matt had a steak which was also amazing. We both agreed that this was definitely one of the best meals we had on the trip. Afterwards we were wiped out and decided to just head back to the apartment. But first we stopped at an ice cream shop conveniently located on the way back.

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We woke up early and made the two mile trek to old town to start my self-guided walking tour to hit all of the sights. Luckily the morning started off looking so nice and pretty! Too bad storms were looming. We made our way to the Viktualienmarkt-a permanent daily outdoor market place where they sell food and other goods, we had breakfast (another cheese plate for me!), and started seeing all of the churches. We also managed to catch the giant glockenspiel at 11 am in the Marienplatz at Neues Rathaus (above)! It was entertaining but definitely a drawer of crowds. I enjoyed the fact that we managed to be next to an English speaking person explaining the scenes portrayed to his visiting friends.

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We continued our journey through the many churches and sites, each one with new details and artwork and stories that could have kept me preoccupied all day long. 

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It was nearing lunch time and we struggled to find a good place to eat so we both decided on snacks... Matt finally found cookies and cream ice cream. The ice cream conveniently wasn't allowed in the churches (literally signs on the door that specified "no food" but just in case you weren't sure if ice cream was food also "no ice cream").

It was starting to look ominous outside and we were located near the infamous Hofbrauhaus and we decided it was worth checking out. Also, I wanted a pretzel for my snack, because the one I had at breakfast just wasn't enough, and what better place? They also had beer cut with lemonade which if I had a type of beer that would be the kind.

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You should try at least one beer that is bigger than your head right? It mostly tasted like lemonade so that definitely helped and somehow I was able to pass a sobriety test afterwards, must be that German blood. They had live music playing, a friendly atmosphere, and the guy at the table next to us taught me how to properly drink the beer (by jutting it into the air in a "cheers" manner before your first sip... this was a struggle and just ended in me giggling at my failed attempts).

Afterwards it was pouring out and we attempted to stay dry by walking in between buildings with overhangs until we finally made it to The Residence. I had not intended to do the tour, but since it was still pouring outside we decided it would be a great way to pass the time and this palace was impressive.

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This palace had over 130 rooms and while each room was gorgeous and ornate and filled with detail and history, it took so long to get through... Was it worth it? For history buffs and architect lovers probably more so. There were parts I enjoyed tremendously and other parts we rushed through because it truly seemed never-ending-but the rain was still coming down when we got out, so it did keep us dry and gave us something interesting to look at and learn about for a while.

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The rain finally died down and we were able to spend a little time in the English Garden. The parts we got to see were absolutely gorgeous, and I was just grateful to have a moment away from the hustle and bustle that comes with cities. This park, while lesser known, is larger than both Central Park and Hyde Park and I wish we had had better weather and more time to explore it further. But our stomachs started growling and we had little interest in eating at another beer garden so we made our way to Ruff's Burgers that had peaked our interest the night before.

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Matt went for the chili cheese fries while I got their aioli dipping sauce, and everything was amazing and another great meal in Munich. This place was near our neighborhood so we walked around for a bit, then stopped by an ice cream shop I had scoped out prior to our trip.

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Der Verrückte Eismacher has a wonderland theme and ice cream flavors to match.b Their tables were mushrooms, their chairs were modeled after cards, and their servers wore costume! (and offered fantastic customer service)

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While there were many interesting flavors (and the few I tasted before deciding were delicious-including gouda and strawberry rhubarb) I settled on strawberry basil while Matt got the Gouda and a take on Chocolate. It was so good and hands down the best Ice Cream we had on this trip (and we tried a lot of good ice cream).

With our bellies filled and a full day behind us, we headed back to the apartment in prep for our last few days of our trip. Next Up: Salzburgland.

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Weight Bias and Stigma

This post was supposed to go out last Thursday, but Wednesday I got the call that I was getting a niece a bit early (her due date was today) SO all other things went on the back burner including proofreading, editing and sharing this post. She's adorable and happy and big sister likes her most of the time and I'm glad I dedicated my time to being there for my sister... But now I must get back to the last piece of my HAES series (just kidding, I will forever and always post about HAES but this is the last one I intentionally have planned in the foreseeable future).

So to embark on our HAES journey we have to acknowledge that those who are living in a larger body live with a stigma due weight bias. To fully understand, let's define these terms:

Weight Bias: Like any other bias is a judgement particularly made due to their size. This can be an assumption about their lifestyle and habits, their current health, their knowledge or education level, their relationship status, their happiness, their satisfaction with their life or body... This bias can and has infiltrated every inch of our society from our health care, to our schools, to our families, to our own minds. 

Weight Stigma: The result of weight bias leads to unfair treatment, inadequate care, discrimination, and harassment that one might face due to being in a larger body. The bias that results in this stigma can be both external and internal. 

The effects of bias and stigma in multiple subgroups has been linked to poor health outcomes (POC, LGBTQ, Low SES, Mental Illness, etc). Sometimes it can be an internalization of this stigma that prevents someone to get treatment to begin with, however, we must ask what is happening to make them not want to seek proper care? 

Of course, there are some individuals who literally live in a space without access to adequate care or do not have the means to see a health care provider. And that's a problem I hope is fixed in my lifetime (sooner would be great). 

In this instance though, I'm talking about people who choose not to go to the doctors (or perhaps elsewhere) because fear of biased care and treatment based on their or others experienced stigma. 

Then there are the ones who do but their problems are ignored because of this bias:

We're talking about the patient who went in for an earache to be told that they needed to diet.

The prospective gym goer who was immediately told prior to any assessment that they could help them lose the fat.

The new mom who was approached during a target trip to receive unsolicited weight loss advice. (Pro-tip: Stranger or not, just don't give weight loss advice. Weight loss attempts fail 95% of the time, so just don't.)

The one who's experienced some variation of all of the above and just doesn't leave the house anymore.

You may think that these scenarios aren't real. Or that they rarely happen. But they do happen and in my opinion that is enough to want to make a change. 

The fact that these people are human beings,  and in my opinion every human being deserves care, respect, and to be able to live day to day without being ridiculed for something they have no control over, and this should be enough but it isn't and there is even more at stake.

When weight bias infiltrates our healthcare system we misdiagnose. With weight bias we don't see the whole person. We don't listen. We miss important symptoms that in any other individual would be cause for concern.

With this comes high demands and impossible standards. We withhold treatment until weight loss is made or we suggest risky treatment that results are questionable.

We won't do a knee surgery that could improve one's quality of life but we would not hesitate to amputate healthy organs that will certainly have terrifying side effects, including the risk of death.

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All of this for the sake of a number that means next to nothing. All of this in hopes of achieving the (is it so glorious?) thin ideal. All of this because our society has a problem, a dangerous fatphobia. 

So how can you challenge weight (and other) bias?

Weight bias is not going to go away over night. It will likely be around for a very long time. It's ingrained in us and our society, but we can take steps to challenge it and make efforts to contribute to a shift.

  • Start with your own bias
    • Notice when initial thoughts about someone pops up and question where they come from. If it's an assumption-it was probably learned.
    • We may never be able to completely irradicate these thoughts but we can acknowledge that they are untrue, that they don't match our values, and move forward with compassion for everyone.
    • Start shifting your language. Being fat, POC, disabled, LGBTQ or any other group is not a bad thing. Because it is how someone identifies it's important not use any of these labels as a put down or used negatively in any way. Apply this to chat with others and our own self talk.
    • Vary what you see. If you use social media make sure who and what you're following provides a diverse representation. Our world is not one size, color, or gender. Our feeds should better represent that.
    • If you have children do your best to show them role models and heroes come varied too.
  • Take note if places you go are accessible to all bodies (why stop at larger bodies?)
    • Do they offer seating without arm rests that would be comfortable and supportive for all bodies
    • Is it handicapped accessible
    • Is it inviting to all persons
    • Do they use appropriate languages
  • Shop at places that offer a variety of sizes 
    • If you have a favorite shop that doesn't you can always try to reach out and see if they'll offer a variety of sizes
    • In Southern Indiana I love Skirt and Satchel and The Lemon Seed Boutique - the first offers all of their clothes in XS to 3X and the latter has a Plus Size Section
  • Use language that is preferred by the person
    • Some people may enjoy people first language (Person with X)
    • Others may find that their size, disability, or race is a core part of their identity. Let them define it for you. 
    • If you say something wrong, apologize and use it as a learning moment.
  • If you have the energy and passion, share your experiences and what you learn with others. Call people in. Stand up for others who you feel are being treated unfairly.

If you want to practice Health at Every Size definitely look up Linda Bacon and her work, as well as the Association for Size Diversity and Health. If you have any questions or want to discuss this more please feel free to reach out!

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Along the Romantic Road

Trying to put another amazing trip into words is tough. Luckily, I took a lot of pictures. So many in fact, I'll probably split this into a few posts.

The trip was great. We got to visit multiple spots in Bavaria as well as a side trip to Salzburg, Austria and as with any great vacation did not have nearly enough time. 

We had an overnight flight into Munich and drove straight to Rothenburg ob der Tauber (actually we made a pit stop and took a 30 minute nap because flight sleep is not good sleep).

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Rothenburg was honestly like being plopped right into a fairytale . It's medieval vibes and full city wall around the town made it all very surreal. 

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We spent the afternoon walking around, checking out some portions of the wall, popping in and out of the Christmas and toy and art shops, trying the underwhelming but highly popular Schneeball-a fried ball of dough (not worth it-try one of the amazing baked goods instead). We walked around until our dinner reservation at Zur Höll (translation: To Hell). 

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Zur Höll is the oldest building still standing in Rothenburg, parts of it dating back to the year 900. Definitely make a reservation in advance as no one who came in without was seated (and we got there at 5:30). 

They serve general Franconian fare. And the white asparagus was in season, so if you're there in the spring get yourself some (they cover it in hollandaise and honestly it was the star of the show). 

Following dinner, we walked for a bit more until we found some ice cream and because we were wiped out just went back to our hotel room, in bed around 8 p.m. Self care on vacation is important too.

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The next morning we woke up early and were greeted by a sleepy Rothenburg. We eventually found an open bakery and got something tasty to fuel our adventures. We walked around until shops and museums began to open up. We briefly ventured outside of the wall when we stumbled upon this overlook of the countryside.

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I wish we had more time to walk the trail that went past all these vineyards and fields but I wanted to check out Käthe Wolfhahrt Christmas Museum. The Christmas shops located right near our hotel were amazing, filled to the brim with intricate ornaments and beautiful decorations. The Museum, however, was an absolute dud. Definitely do not recommend going to it. Luckily, it's not very big nor does it take much time to get through if you find yourself disinterested.

After wrapping up we made our way to Ulm. This was a great midway point between two must see destinations and I figured it would be a good place to stay a couple of days to recoup and adjust. It also had plenty of charm and things to do that made it worth the stop all on it's own though!

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First stop was the Ulmer Münster. This gothic cathedral has the highest steeple in the world with 768 steps to get you to the top. We opted out of climbing it as we had plenty of walking around to do.

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After exploring the church and downtown for a bit, we walked the pedestrian path that goes along the Danube River to the popular fisherman quarter of Ulm. 

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Filled with old half timbered houses and likely it's most iconic piece, the crookedest home in the world. We enjoyed dinner in the fisherman quarter at Zur Forelle (To the Trout) that was once frequented by Albert Einstein himself. Did I mention Ulm was his birthplace? 

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We walked back to downtown, exploring the streets along the way and managed to run into another ice cream shop. Honestly, we ate ice cream at the very least daily on this trip. It tastes 100x better in Europe AND they had amazing fruity flavors. I think I never tried the same flavor twice, this one was mango.

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Sunday in Germany many places shut down and I figured this was the perfect day to have minimal plans and relax as much as possible. Breakfast was still on the schedule though and I think I will be dreaming about the breakfasts of Germany forever.

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Basically they were basically a well varied charcuterie board with an assortment of breads. I have every intention of recreating a German breakfast sometime soon because it was such a fun and delicious change. Following, the only thing we had on the Agenda was to visit one of the most beautiful libraries in the world (according to some list I came upon during my planning) and it did not disappoint.

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Kloster Wiblingen is a former Benedictine Abbey, just a bit south of Ulm, so there was no way that I wasn't touring it. And it was 100% worth it. We got there shortly after it opened and had the whole place to ourselves. The intricate details of the marbled poles and golden accents, all the statues and the ceiling painting had so much you could stay in there all day and still be noticing new things. Alas, to spare my husband we didn't stay too much longer than an hour. 

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We had a big breakfast, so in lieu of lunch had some more ice cream and figured we may have an early dinner and head to bed early since the next day welcomed more travel. The weather had predicted storms but it still looked beautiful out when we  got back to the hotel so we took the pedestrian path and got lost in the park next door. Everywhere we went there was always plenty of trails for pedestrians, cyclists and lots of green set aside-you saw people of all ages and abilities out and about and it was so refreshing.  

The next morning we woke up and had breakfast at the hotel (eating a very similar plate as the day before) before heading to Füssen to visit the famous Neuschwanstein castle. We got to the ticket booth and there was a mix up, but fortunately they were so incredibly friendly, kind and helpful (and had room in an English group in the next hour). 

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Neuschwanstein, the fairytale castle of Ludwig II (that he never saw finished), is beautifully placed in the Bavarian Alps, overlooking his own childhood home. A bridge is situated across from the castle over a waterfall, Marienbrucke- if you get to visit it I highly recommend going all the way to the far end, everyone was clustered at the beginning and literally no one had gone beyond the middle. There's also a path up a steep hill that will take you to another outlook point but we needed to get down to the castle for our tour!

When you get to the courtyard you have to wait until your group time comes and then you're all shuffled through the turnstyle, into the castle and then whisked up multiple stairs. Neuschwanstein sees nearly 10,000 visitors each day with tours leaving the courtyard every 5 minutes, so everything seemed a little bit rushed but was 100% worth it. Unfortunately no photos in the castle.

Marienbrucke Bridge from the castle

Marienbrucke Bridge from the castle

After our tour we walked back down to the car (they also offer buses to shuttle you from the town to the castle and vice versa). On the way they have some food places and shops, we stopped and grabbed quarkballen-basically a powder sugared donut. Very good and quick to tide over the hunger that was approaching. We drove back to Fussen for a quick lunch and since the rain was not letting up decided it was time to wrap up our stay along the Romantic Road.

Next stop, Munich!

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Happy National Donut Day! Hope everyone who wants the best circular food with a hole in the middle gets one today (Bagels are a close, but definite second.) 

As May comes to a close and the freshness of being another year older begins to fade, I cannot help but wonder where I want to be in a year. I think I've said it before, and you'll probably see it again and again across this blog, but I love lists. Give me a reason to make a list and I will gleefully run with it. So here is my 27 things by 27 years old:

  1. Find more forms of movement that I enjoy and then participate regularly.
  2. Get out on and in the water more. I love to swim and be around water but in my adult years this just hasn't been as much of a priority, which is a shame considering all the places I've lived have had large lakes nearby. 
  3.  Create more. I love to create: weaving, water color, coloring but I do it more sporadically than anything and I hope to be more intentional with setting aside time to create. 
  4. With that, I would love to explore a new art form so I hope to take another art class this year (I took water color last year and fell in love with it!)
  5. Spend more time with the people I love.
  6. Unplug more.
  7. Experiment in the Kitchen more.
  8. Journal regularly.
  9. Always try to find the positive. Be more compassionate with myself and others. Try to only speak kind words while remaining honest and authentic.
  10. Expand my circle of people I communicate and interact with on a regular basis, really take time to consider who I look to as role models, that I know about, that I spend my time with.
  11. Continue to learn more about this field and topic I'm so passionate about.
  12. Take my dog on more walks. Slow, unrushed, unplugged.
  13. Finally get a State Parks Pass (that I keep saying I'm going to get) and really use it. 
  14. Try more new foods and dishes and recipes.
  15. Travel (near or far) whenever possible.
  16. Read more books. 
  17. Eat Tacos whenever the opportunity presents itself. Because, tacos.
  18. Cuddle my dog, against her will or when she'll let me, I'm equal opportunity on this one.
  19. Get outdoors more.
  20. Be more intentional with my time.
  21. Practice yoga and meditation on the regular.
  22. Try more new (or new to me) restaurants in Bloomington (this is a small fragment of a much longer list of restaurants I want to get to).
    1. The Owlery
    2. Social Cantina
    3. Scholars Keep
    4. Osteria Rago
    5. The Roost
  23. Bake more. From scratch, from boxes, from pre-made dough or desserts. I'm not picky.
  24. Get more massages (honestly, I've never had a massage so my goal is to just get one and test my irrational fear of getting a massage)
  25. Take another dance class (I took contemporary this past spring and had a blast!)
  26. Continue to question and grow and learn and hope and dream and set (and crush) goals and life things.
  27. Embrace the lived experience: good, bad, happy, stressful, worrisome, challenging, celebrating. I just want to embrace what comes.
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Looking back over this list, I see that my hope for this next year is all about adding to and I could not be more pleased. I have every intention to make the most of this life and I cannot think of a better way to do so.

 Do you make a "to do" list each year? What are some things you do or would put on your list?

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Set Point Theory

I've been a bit incommunicado for the last couple of weeks as we were traveling Germany and Austria... and then I underwent a major trip hangover-which literally all I wanted to do was plan future adventures-no worries we have a small weekend getaway to Louisiana planned for September, so I'm starting to recover. In all honesty, I had meant to prepare a few posts for when we got back and while I did most of the research I ran out of time to put it into coherent sentences.

My self care is and always will be a priority and while I would love to be the type who can whip out a post on the daily, I don't think I ever will be. And that's a-okay with me. I do hope to mostly post 2-3 times a week with occasional breaks here and there. It's likely to ebb and flow given what's going on in life. I hope you stay with me for the ride!

So we've addressed what HAES is and is not-now let's dive into some of the science. Excuse me while I nerd out a little bit.

At the core of Health at Every Size is set point theory. Set point theory suggests that all of our bodies have an individualized weight range that our bodies trend towards. Even though it is called a theory-science suggests that when we don't actively try to control our weight it tends to stabilize reinforcing this idea. Our set point is not likely to be an exact number so fluctuation in your weight it is completely normal- the range can vary +/- up to 10 pounds give or take-varying person to person.

Your weight may be more similar to body temperature or our pH balance than we are led to believe. For those who haven't done a lot of reading or research on the human body and anatomy, our bodies can only sustain life if our pH and temperature are kept within a very fine range-anytime we even begin to stray away our body has measures and mechanisms that kick in to get it back to a normal range to keep us safe and alive. In this case, we can try to change our weight, but our body will keep fighting us to get back to equilibrium (our set point range).

Catch 22: Your body wants to maintain the status quo and is stubbornly resistant to change. When you lose body fat, the very loss of fat triggers processes to reclaim it. So losing weight in and of itself is counterproductive to maintaining weight loss.”
— Linda Bacon, PhD, Author of Health at Every Size

This can go very far in explaining why diets and sustained weight loss are so damn hard. It’s possible that those who sustain the weight loss (generally around 5% of the population-that's right diets have a 95% failure rate) were above their set point prior to the weight loss. Or maybe they are currently below their set point because they are actively engaging in unhealthy restrictive behaviors.

So how is our set point weight determined?

There are a many factors that help determine body size-and our eating habits are pretty low on the list. Below are some of the major contributions:

Genetics is a large predictor in what our bodies size will be and what shape we may have. I know this sucks and our teenage self may want to come out and say "My parents ruin everything!" but honestly they didn't choose it either. And did that blame game ever get you anywhere, really?

Another factor that can influence our set point weight is environment. Which we may or may not have control over depending on, well, life and it's many mishaps and mayhems. Do you have access to fresh food and water? Are you in an environment that causes a lot of stress? Does your environment encourage you to be sedentary or physically active? This list can go on for a while, but our control over this varies with our age, wealth, and so much more.

The last thing, which we have the most control over, is our dieting history. And no, dieting typically doesn't do what you want it to (lower the set point) but actually raises it. Diet cycling particularly, where we are yo-yoing between diets triggers our set point may go up... and up... and up. What happens is that our body does not know when we are actively trying to lose weight versus a famine. So when we diet our body's alarms go off because of the restriction done in dieting believes we are starving. Our body, the self preserving machine  it is (see above desire to keep us in equilibrium), will do everything it can to get us back to our set point. Often times, it will raise the set point in anticipation of another famine... because if we have a bit of extra weight, we can survive for a little bit longer. You will see this weight gain as your body betraying you. Your body sees it as a means to survive.

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So what is my set point weight?

We're not talking about an exact number here. There is no specific formula to figure out your set point. There's not even an ideal number. As I said above, it's likely a range that can vary by nearly 20 pounds (depending on the individual). But if you're ready to give up dieting, if you want to work towards body acceptance, you can get there.

How do I get to my set point? 

As I said before, it's possible to achieve your set point. I wish I could tell you it's going to be easy... but it probably won't. It will take unlearning. And relearning. And a lot of patience and compassion for yourself and for your body. But you can do it by:

  • Rejecting diet culture
  • Listening to your hunger and fullness
  • Honoring your appetite and begin to return to eating intuitively (we'll touch more on intuitive
  • Recognize food for its values beyond nutrition by allowing yourself to feel not only full but satisfied by food whether it's physically, emotionally or mentally

If you are struggling with any of this but still want to continue on the path to accepting your body and saying no to diets for good, I highly recommend meeting with an anti-diet dietitian. We can help you move away from the restriction that comes with diets and into freedom. If you are in Bloomington, or wish to work virtually with me, you can check out my services here!

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Sources

Set Point: What your body is trying to tell you http://nedic.ca/set-point-what-your-body-trying-tell-you

Health at Every Size by Linda Bacon

Taco Pasta

You guys, tacos are one of my favorite foods. I don't say that lightly because I love most foods and I hate to play favorites, but I can barely resist a good taco. They're versatile and can be eaten for every meal.

When Banza announced their Banza + Plants contest I said to myself "challenge accepted." (I was re-watching How I Met Your Mother when it was announced so...) The challenge was to create a vegan pasta dish using Banza. 

Disclosure: As a nutrition ambassador for Banza I receive packages that include pasta and coupons. Banza provided the pasta for this recipe. My thoughts and opinions on Banza are 100% my own.

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This pasta turned out better than I imagined it would. Don't get me wrong I'm a good home cook (#humblebrag) but I've just begun really dabbling in recipe development. The conistency and taste of the mixture even had my meat loving husband enjoying it. SUPA PROUD.

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I highly recommend it for taco Tuesday... or Wednesday... or Thursday. Or Everyday. The leftovers make fantastic lunches. Okay, okay, enough telling you about how amazing this recipe is, words only go so far, right? I'll just let you try it out for yourself.

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I hope you enjoy and would love for you to let me know what you think! 

What I've Learned...

I feel like with every birthday comes a time for reflection and reminiscing. Over the first 26 years of my life, I like to think I've learned some things. Most days, just when I think I've got this life figured out, it tends to prove me wrong... Whether I know anything or not, here are some things that I've found to be true for me so far.

  1. Everything, everything, everything is on a spectrum. Nothing is black and white. There is gray everywhere and this is where most of us can find a common ground. But most people don't like the ambiguity of the gray. Try to embrace the gray.
  2. It's important to do your best to find things that fuel your fire but do not burn you out. If you find something is dimming your light, and it's within your control to let it go, you must. It may be hard. It may even hurt a little. But it will be worth it.
  3. Set aside time for the people who matter the most in your life. This list should most definitely include you. 
  4. Be brave enough to stand strong in your beliefs. Be open minded and compassionate enough to see things from others perspective. Realize there is a big difference between compromising and questioning. 
  5. Eat the doughnut. Buy the shirt. Take the art class. Life moves way too fast and regret is nothing more than a time suck. If you have it, do your best to learn from it and move on.
  6. I will continue to evolve. I know this to be true so I plan for this and I hope for this as it shows growth as a person. Some of my beliefs may hold true for me until the end of time. Some of them may change just a bit. Some may alter completely. Some I may leave and come back to later. All of the above will be okay as long as I'm being true to my character.

 

 

What are some things you've learned in your trips around the sun? I'd Love for you to share below!

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The Evil Dreaded No Good Dirty Rotten Birthday

Content Warning: In this post I talk about aging and body image. I want to start by acknowledging my immense privilege as a young, white, thin female who has faced minimal stigma in my life. I know this is not the case for everyone and if for any reason you feel this subject may que something for you and it will be safer for you to not read, please take care of yourself and do that. 

Tomorrow I turn 26 years old. To be honest I've never really enjoyed birthdays all that much, mostly because I'm an introvert and birthdays called for (in my opinion) unnecessary attention. I mean, they announced it at school, they sing happy birthday in restaurants, everyone makes a big stink about it and I just wasn't into it.

Last year turning 25, I couldn't help but think "oh god, the dreaded terrible 26, I'll officially be closer to my thirties than I am to my teens."  (because it's such a bad thing to put more distance between me and my teen years). Watching as others hit this marker before me, I have observed that this is, unfortunately, completely normal. According to the "powers that be", I feel like 25 is the last age deemed appropriate for most women to celebrate with enjoyment and glee, before 30 we should just stop sharing our age or choose the age we're going to use when we lie, at 40 we definitely aren't "allowed" to wear anything we want because there are some made up ridiculous rules about that too, and at 50 we're definitely not considered older and wiser, but just the little lady who probably needs aid crossing the street and is offered help for her grocery bags carried out to the car because we haven't managed for the first 50 years of our lives.

These last few months I've thought about ageism in our society today. I've thought about how it's ingrained in us, as women, to dread getting older. That we are told to fear aging, not necessarily because it means we're closer to death, but because with wrinkles and cellulite and stretch marks and sun spots and crows feet and graying hair and every thing else that shows that we've lived a full and meaningful life, that we won't fit our societies ideal of beauty. We're fed information and sold products and procedures. These products and procedures, of course, are only a temporary solution-because in spite of all the efforts in the world  you'll continue aging, but society will keep on saying, young is beautiful and it's bullshit, because we're all screwed as it is an inevitable part of life.

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So in my thoughts and angry rage towards these unrealistic standards I've decided to say (pardon my French) f*ck that sh!t. 

This year, I'm embracing my birthday. I'm embracing becoming older. I'm embracing the lived experience, which in my opinion, is so much better than youth. I'm embracing my cellulite. I'm embracing the inevitable crows feet and graying hair and wrinkles and sun spots that say I've lived and laughed and smiled and some days I forgot to reapply sunscreen because I was so immersed in the living (whoops). 

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If my tattoos begin to fade or distort with time, if I choose to have children and develop stretch marks, if I have injuries that leave me with scars, if I have experiences (even if that experience is simply having the opportunity to grow older) that alters my appearance-I want to be able to welcome it and be grateful for this life. 

I know this will not be easy. I know I'm going against a culture that does not agree. I know everything we are taught, nearly everything we see will say that this is the wrong approach. But in the end, I don't want to waste my life wasting time trying to regain something I can't get back. 

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The question is, are you ready to rebel? Will you join me?

Just One Bite...

My grandparents (aka the greatest couple of all time) are my food role models. Not to say they haven't had their own unique relationships with food. But they always encouraged me to try new foods, and I 100% owe my diverse food palate to them and my innate need to please (because my siblings did not oblige to their encouragement, but they turned out to be much pickier eaters than me, so people pleasing for the win!)

In line with what they enabled me, I still love to try new foods (and have even had the opportunity to return the favor by introducing them to some new cuisines like Thai, Indian and Peruvian)! Since trying new things is something I'm passionate about (and to encourage myself to continue to try new things since I can't take my grandparents everywhere with me...) here are my opinions on a few things I've tried lately.

I will always disclose if  a post is ever sponsored. This is not one of those times-but I  promise to only share my honest thoughts and opinions here and elsewhere, paid or otherwise. 

1. Bubly

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I love sparkling water. I mostly drink water so it's fun to switch it up a bit. I know it's not everyone's fancy, but I really do enjoy it.  Bubly was no exception. I just kind of stumbled upon this brand when in target planning to pick up their brand of sparkling water and it so happened to be on sale.

I was super excited about the apple flavor and it did not disappoint-it reminded me of sour apple candies which in my opinion is childhood in a can. The mango flavor was just okay. It didn't blow me away and is far from my favorite, but I didn't hate it. 

I love their quirky logo that incorporates a smile. Also, Neil Patrick Harris is on their main page and that never hurt anything.

I haven't found anything about this brand or product that I dislike yet. (I haven't dug too hard though)

Other Bubly's I wanna give a try: Cherry and Strawberry

2. Perfect Bar

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I kept seeing perfect bars pop up in instagram stories and my news feed so I figured it was about time to give them a try. So I picked up a few flavors: The coconut peanut butter, the peanut butter chocolate, and the blueberry cashew.

The first bar I tried was the Coconut Peanut Butter and I loved it. It reminded me of a really good PB no bake cookie and filled me up for an afternoon snack. I had high hopes for the PB chocolate and Blueberry cashew after such a wonderful experience but unfortunately, they just were not as good. I'd eat those flavors in a pinch but probably wouldn't buy them again.

I love that this protein bar doesn't use whey-I cannot tolerate the mouthfeel and whey often leaves me feeling terrible so that was a definite plus.

I hate the name and the "reasons" they deem it perfect. 

Bars I want to give a try: Almond Coconut, Maple Almond and Chocolate Walnut Brownie

3. Dr. Praegers Veggie Burger

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I had seen Dr. Praeger's before and heard nothing but good things but was often scared off by the price-low and behold Kroger had them on sale one day so I grabbed a couple of flavors to give them a whirl.

These are by far my favorite frozen veggie burgers I've ever had! My meat loving husband also didn't hate them so I call it a win.

I love the variety of flavors that this brand has! We tried the Kale burger and this one so far and both have been great. Also, the food pun on the box is a welcomed added bonus.

I'm not in love with their tagline "Purely sensible"... which is a common theme for me not liking products I guess.

I want to try the Bibbimap (have in my freezer) and the Mushroom Risotto Veggie Burgers, as well as their root veggie hash browns.

4. Buddha Bowl Foods Popcorn

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This popcorn was an impulse buy the day before I left for Chicago. I was at Lucky's looking for some snacks for the trip and saw this flavor-since I love sweet/spicy combos so this looked amazing.

While I ended up not opening it on the trip, I did dig into them shortly after and in fact am snacking on them right now. The flavor is subtle but very good.

I love the perfect balance between the jalapeño and honey-it's spicy and sweet, but not overly so in either direction.

I hate the companies tagline "Lesser Evil." I didn't notice it until I got home this one had by far the worst one and really focused on demonizing food...  The product was great but I could really do without this.

5. The Jackfruit Company

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Jackfruit is one of the foods on my food bucket list. When I saw this on sale I figured it was a great (and easy) way to try it out! Since the husband had zero interest I made it on an evening he wasn't home for dinner.

To be honest-I didn't like the sauce/seasoning on this. The texture of the jackfruit really did remind me of shredded meat but I just struggled getting past the flavor. I finished it for dinner but would not probably buy this flavor again.

I like that this company makes incorporating jackfruit easier because honestly, who's going to buy a whole jackfruit?

Again, I don't like the tagline because "the healthy main dish" suggests that this dish promises health. No food alone can do that.

 

Have you tried any of these foods? Are there any other food (or other) products you've tried lately and loved (or thought you would but ended up not?) I'd love to hear from you below!

 

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Lone Travel, New and Old Friends, and Knowledge Overload

This past weekend in Chicago(that ran into Tuesday-hence the belatedness) was fantastic to say the least. I got to see old friends before heading into the city, dip my toe into a moment of lone travel, meet new amazing HAES warriors, and learn so, so much from rockstars in the anti-diet realm on a topic I am passionate and curious about... Honestly, it Wiped. Me. Out. In the best way possible.

I hear about flight anxiety often, but I just want to see if anyone experiences anxiety when driving? I think I'm always a bit on edge when driving but it is so heightened when I'm driving in an unfamiliar place or traffic is fairly heavy. So driving into Chicago was not ideal. 

I did make it (and paralleled parked! Who knew I could still do that?) Then, I was on my own the first evening in town, so I decided to test my boundaries and explored a little on my own. I've never really been a tourist on my own but found it enjoyable. I didn't love the crowded spots so much, but I don't like those when I'm with someone either, so that was nothing new.

I lucked out-as it had been gloomy for my entire drive, then suddenly the clouds began to break up and I got a glimpse of sunshine while I walked around the city. I walked around-relatively aimlessly-for about two hours, just trying to take everything in, finding little quiet spots in gardens and people watching, until someone walked past me with Shake Shack and I realized I was hungry and man did it sound good (and would be easily transported back to the room).

Knowing I would be around people for the next two days straight (albeit, some of my favorite kind of people) I knew I needed some "alone time" so I spent the rest of the evening just relaxing, while sipping on my PB milkshake (arguably the best kind of milkshake), watching reruns of Big Bang Theory and was asleep before 9 p.m. and it was an epic night. Self care at it's finest. 

The next morning was the start of the Body Image Workshop that brought me to Chicago and started with an (optional) yoga workshop put on by the fabulous Fi of The Mindful Dietitian. I loved yoga before this workshop and I love it even more now. She and everyone in the class brought all the knowledge for incorporating mindfulness and yoga principles into our practices while connecting them with body image. Plus, she introduced me to chanting and it may have been the coolest mindfulness practice I have ever done. (Seriously, if you ever get the chance-even if at first your red flag goes up and you're like... this is gonna be weird and awkward-because it is, but it's even more cool. And I don't use that term lightly.) 

Afterwards, I walked the whole 4 minutes back to the hotel room to get ready for the afternoon portion and meet up with my roommate and new (we've actually met in real life and not just facebook/instagram) friend, Aubrey from Grace Fueled Nutrition-another awesome anti-diet dietitian! We got lost then eventually got lunch at Eataly before we dove into the rest of the workshop. (seriously-that place was overwhelming... and delicious.) I'm not sure that outside of the workshop the two of us stopped talking for the next two days we spent together. Whoops.

Marci  and  Fi 's fabulous workbook and cards put together just for this workshop

Marci and Fi's fabulous workbook and cards put together just for this workshop

This workshop filled me up. It's so great to be in the presence of so many amazing people who are passionate and excited about the same things you are. It was one of those workshops where you walk away and you're like, yes, this is what I am made for, this is why I am here. 

I am so excited to incorporate all that I learned. Even more so, I am so excited to watch all those that I connected with inspire body image healing.

After such a great trip, I always expect a bit of a let down. I know after vacations the way I get over it, is by planning my next getaway or vacation. Perhaps with workshops I'll have to do something similar... In the meantime, I did some self-care on Wednesday afternoon and took a long bubble bath paired with some non-work related reading to calm my overwhelmed mind.

What do you do to get over the coming back to reality? I'd love to hear your ideas below!

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What Health at Every Size Isn't

I've heard a lot of reasons to be against health at every size, honestly, at one point or another I probably thought or said a lot of these things along my journey. And that's okay. This society makes the fat phobic mindset and bias the easiest route. So, climbing out of it and living on the other side takes a lot of unlearning, being open minded and seeing from multiple perspectives, while realizing when diet culture and fat bias might just be creeping in (and man, is it a sneaky one), and an openness to learning and researching and experimenting and forgiving yourself, ongoing. 

We had a brief introduction on what HAES is and before we dive further into it I want to put it point blank what HAES is not.

1. Health at Every Size is not a weight loss program

If there's a promise of weight loss, it isn't health at every size. The name says it all. Health at Every Size. Not at every size but... Not at most sizes... Not to a certain degree... Not just for an arbitrary range... It is health at EVERY size. It is inclusive of all body shapes and sizes. Anyone that considers themselves a Health at Every Size practitioner and chooses to use that term should not discriminate. 

2. Health at Every Size is not glorifying obesity

First of all, there's plenty of information out there that goes to show that BMI is useless, which is what we use to determine "obsesity".  I mean, the guy who invented it was literally just trying to plot weights vs height to show that they fell along a bell curve, and surprise, they did! (AKA there's a wide range of bodies across the spectrum but the bulk of people fall somewhere in the middle.) Again, I feel the name says it all. Health at Every Size. We aren't glorifying any one body type, but are saying that all body types are worthy to aspire for health without pursuing weight loss. If practicing health at every size, your body will eventually trend to your natural set point range, which we'll get to that a bit later. This weight may be higher than what you start at, it may be lower, or it may stay the same. Whatever weight it is will be a-okay because weight is a very poor indicator of health, which leads me to...

3. Health at Every Size is not letting go of yourself

I feel I keep coming back to the name... but here we are again. HEALTH at Every Size. Health is right there in the title. Through this approach we just take the fixation and obsession that comes with weight loss and dieting and truly focus on healthy behaviors for each individual. Because health isn't black and white, how we approach this is different for everyone, and allows us to provide truly comprehensive care. But it doesn't have to involve restrictive diets and it doesn't have to result in weight loss.

Side note: I want it to be clear that there are circumstances that prevent someone from having perfect health that are beyond their choices and control (disabilities, chronic disease, etc) and this is not exclusive to larger bodied people. There can be thin people with health problems, just as there can be larger bodied individuals who are in the best health-because size is not a determinant. In spite of these obstacles, individuals can still strive for health where they are at. 

4. Health at every size is not easy

I wish I could say it were. I wish I could tell you that you'll read this book and listen to some podcasts and follow some people on social media, and you'll be there, in all your HAES glory, rocking the body you have right now, intuitively eating, and living your best lives. But it takes a lot of work. At times diet culture will slip in-unintentionally-whether it's something you or someone else says, in an action (or reaction) you take or just a thought. But with practice, our reaction to others, our thoughts, our words and our actions start to better reflect HAES. You just have to keep at it and if you're ready, it's beyond worth it.

What are some misconceptions you've heard about HAES? If you've faced the misconceptions, what's stopping you from embarking on a Health at Every Size path?

I Believe...

I want to keep this blog fun, as well as filled with useful information, tools and recipes you can take away. So, I was brainstorming ideas and doing some reflecting, and I remembered how English was one of my least favorite classes growing up. Nothing made me despise reading and writing more than it being assigned to me (and I love to read) and writing is fine, as long as I don't have to summarize and provide an analysis. I much prefer reflection and journaling. Also, I tend to write how I speak and think and sometimes that results in really, really long run on sentences. Whoops.

Don't get me wrong, some of my favorite books were assigned to me-Lord of the Flies, The Outsiders, Fahrenheight 451. But I went into them kicking and screaming (figuratively-I am an introvert and would never call such attention to myself unless I felt my life was being threatened).

So most of the time I dreaded the assignments. Except for one time during my junior year of high school.

Here's a picture of me at 17 for reference. I believed in carrying a giant zebra print purse filled with things like slinkies, wearing neon ALL THE TIME, and using a ton of mousse until my hair was literally crunchy. 

Here's a picture of me at 17 for reference. I believed in carrying a giant zebra print purse filled with things like slinkies, wearing neon ALL THE TIME, and using a ton of mousse until my hair was literally crunchy. 

The prompt was simply to write what we believed in. I loved this prompt so much, I remember having the best time writing it. Although I've managed to misplace the original, I thought it would be fun to revisit nearly ten years later.

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I Believe: 2018 Edition

I believe in rest. and naps. and bedtimes. 

Unless I can't put my book down

I believe in joyful intentions

I believe in daydreaming... and then chasing those dreams

I believe in soul food

I believe in keeping an open mind 

I believe in love

I believe that laughter is the best medicine 

But not if it's at the expense of others

I believe in dancing in the kitchen while baking cookies every chance you get

I believe in eating dinner at the table together most of the time

However, I believe that takeout Thai food tastes best re-watching episodes of Big Bang Theory

I believe in being just and fair and kind as often as possible

I believe in science

I believe in setting aside time for the things you enjoy and the people you love

I believe there is never one way to do, see or think anything. Except for toilet paper rolls. ALWAYS  OVER.

I believe in compassion and empathy and expressing gratitude

I believe in continuous learning

I believe in play - this can be movement or getting creative or literal play, in ways that fuel you

I believe in a lot of self care and self compassion and attempts at self love for ever and ever

I believe in standing up for others and yourself and for what is right

I believe in myself

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Thanks for reading along-I had so much fun writing this and reflecting on how much things have changed in the past ten years. I would love to hear some of the things you believe in down below!

Health At Every Size

Recently, Health At Every Size by Linda Bacon got some extra publicity when Matt McGorry shared that he read the book and personally endorsed it. Linda Bacon posted on social media that she has seen a surge in purchase of the book on Amazon. I must admit that while I am very excited this space is getting the notice and attention that it definitely deserves, I know how hefty this book is and how easy it is to be resistant to the information or misuse and abuse it if in the wrong mindset. In spite of the extensive research she lays out and myths she debunks at the beginning of the book, I was not open to it when I first picked it up a few years ago. However, I came around and now consider myself a Health at Every Size (HAES) practitioner. 

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I'm assuming at this point, many of you may be wondering, what is "Health at Every Size"? 

Health at Every Size is not only a book by Linda Bacon, but a social justice movement and approach used by a growing number of practitioners who believe that health is so much more and has very little to do with how much you weigh or where you fall on the BMI curve. Everyone of every size has a right to pursue health for themselves and they do not have to diet or even pursue weight loss to do so.

There are five main HAES principles, which the Association for Size Diversity and Health (ASDAH) lay out on their website:

  1. Weight Inclusivity
  2. Health Enhancement
  3. Respectful Care
  4. Eating for Well Being
  5. Life Enhancing Movement

Over the next couple of months, I want to deep dive into these principles as well as other HAES concepts, and discuss what they imply, some of the research behind them, and how to apply it to your own lives. 

If you have any particular questions, comments or concerns about HAES, I would love to hear from you in the comments below or through email!

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Hatin' on the Hustle

So I hate the hustle. 

Not the '70s dance. 

I know it's an unpopular opinion, but I am talking about the use and abuse of the "hurry up and hustle" lifestyle. You know the one I'm talking about. You've probably fallen in line with it at some point.

Me too. I hustled through college and internships and grad school. I hustled right into my career. I hustled until I couldn't hustle any more.

Now don't get me wrong, a good work ethic is commendable. Hard work is a necessary part of life. But hustling ourselves right into our grave is not only ridiculous but unnecessary. 

For the sake of research, I looked up the definition of hustle... 

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It's just a word that applauds the aggressive way we go about our goals, and take our need for rest and self care-not to just be put it on the back burner, but taken right off the stove and have all four burners on high heat with really complicated dishes occupying each one.

Believe me. I feel the pull sometimes-in fact just this week I felt a pull to try to keep an arbitrary schedule for the sake of who knows what.We feel if we do more and say yes to everything we'll get more gratification and all the good feels. But honestly, we just end up tired and burned out.

There is no heart in the hustle because the hustle drains you.

So if we say no to the hustle, what then?

Nothing. I passed up on grinding my gears to get a post up Wednesday and instead spent a much needed Tuesday afternoon with my sister and niece. And guess what, the world still turns.

Now don't get me wrong. We can still be  go-getters. We can still have a strong work ethic. We can still have hopes and dreams and goals and chase the heck out of them.

We just don't have to do all the things and we certainly don't have to do them all right now.

Are you hooked on the hustle? What would happen if you let go of something that is no longer fueling you? I'd love to hear your thoughts below!

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